Birmingham taxi driver Mohammed Arshad was murdered by Kings Norton man Andrew Bayliss in a "cruel and savage" attack in July 2009.

Jurors at Worcester Crown Court took four hours to unanimously convict Bayliss after hearing that he compiled a journal confessing that he was "swimming in guilt" in the months after killing Mr Arshad in a Worcestershire road next to the Birmingham City FC training ground near Hopwood

West Mercia Police have released the following extracts from Bayliss's diary after a judge sentenced him to a minimum of 30 years in prison.

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Having a hard time writing this to you, really I do not have the words, or where to start.

I am in Wales now, I came as it was all I could think to do, I came as I was really scared to be at home.

Last few months have been the worst of my life...  So far, I'm sure it won't be long until it is WORSE!

I have been really paranoid to be home, this would explain my strange behaviour. Never could I imagine our emotions could be so strong, paranoia, guilt, fear, mis-trust. But all of this I deserve, and more much more.

I really don't understand how I come to this point in my life, somehow I make wrong decisions and my focus is on this, then I always make a mess.

I have made many mistakes, most things like choosing wrong jobs, as I know I am capable of so much more. I do regret having *****, I love him more than you, can know; until you have children.  He is the most loving and amazing child, but he deserves to be part of a family.  ***** does not treat the children correct and I fear for **** growing up.  This is heartbreaking for me now, I know that one way or another I will not be there to have influence over **** and give him my love.

I don't know what this is, maybe an explanation, confession, I feel so bad, guilty, sick - feel so sick!  I feel sick when I think about ****, **** ,**** , **** , **** & **** , ****  and my cousins **** & ****  who are married with children.

My work mates, **** & **** , all the crew from **** and most of all I feel sick to think about ****

****  is amazing, I am so lucky to have the chance, to be close, to someone who is beautiful, clever, witty, switched on - everything good.

I AM SO SORRY to have started relationship with **** after what I had done.  But I didn't know what to do, I was trying to live normal life, I was not tricking ****.  I really can not believe how things have turned out, I wish I could turn the clock back 6 months.

Then I would be the happiest person alive, but this is not the case.  Right now I have been living each day in such fear, I didn't know if I should run away, kill myself, give up or just to carry on as usual.

I want so much to have normal life, to be with ****, look after *****, watch him grow.  I have such respect for life now, knowing any time may be the last... for me it has been, we went camping - it was maybe last time, when I say bye to anyone, I think is this the last time I will see them.

This is why maybe I want ****, it could be the last time I will feel love and be loved.  I need this so much right now, I deserve so much punishment - but I am scared, and do not know the way.

Today I went camping, set up camp, made coffee and splif, collected a few tree's and made an amazing fire, it lasted long time!

Had two wee men, just before I started this, including the journey here, I have tried to enjoy myself as I would if others were here, but everything is so hollow, life's meaning is lost on me now.

All day long I think only of something I done, an event that has for certain thrown my life away, ruined **** life, and I really can not bear, to think, what people will think of me.

I want you to know that I never posed any threat to anyone I know, this is important, I don't want **** to judge her own choices as wrong, few days ago, **** left me with ****  while she went the shop, all I could think was.... She wouldn't let me within a mile of **** if she knew.

Right in this moment, I am just trying to do anything I can to live each day try and enjoy things, which is very hard thinking about my situation.  How did things come to this?  I am thinking this all day also.  Why I made the choices I did?  I really can't put any one thing to blame for my actions, I know what I was thinking in the moment and somehow I convinced myself I had to do something.